another wish(es)

Hola Dear Reader, so sorry for the hardly-ever new post here – well, have anyone been missing me? Lol :D

I’m literally unemployed with nothing much to do, but somehow blogging wasn’t a way I wanted to waste my time on. This past month was Ramadhan and I admit I didn’t think much about blogging. --___--

Well, Ramadhan had passed and now it’s already Syawal, so still with a motto “better late than never”,  I’m gonna say this:

Eid Mubarak 1433 H, Dear Reader!

If human is made to be imperfect, then a sincere forgiveness is a way to complete the imperfection. I apologize for the mistakes I did both those within my consciousness and those I did unconsciously. May Allah bless our Ramadhan and let us meet another one next year and so on

How fast time flies. Months had passed since the day I had myself registered as Unair student. 

I’m feeling a bit, err, lost, of what I had spent between that day and today. Having a long holiday, huh?

However, it’s really reaching the day when I should begin my new episode of life – a new adventure!

I dunno whether I will write here as much as what I did when I was a high schooler or not, I’m not making anymore promises about writing (oh shame on me).  I simply still don’t have a clue of what awaits me ahead. Will I be busy? Will I be all absorbed to my new life?

All in all, Dear Reader, again and again please wish me luck yaaa!

I wish for all your best pieces of life in your unimaginably blessed life!

Thank you :) 

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Have you ever looked at something then you realized that you wanted that so badly?
Have you ever found a picture of someone and/or something then you wanted yourself in that picture, too?
Have you ever read a story of someone's and you wanted a day like that happened to you, too?

Just, have you ever had a feeling like "Oh I wish I had a gorgeous life like hers!"

Well, yes, I have. Those feelings are... inevitably sucks.
with the so called jealousies, envies, and even sometimes it could become hatreds, too.
they are really really really sucks. #pffftt

Isn't it pretty tiring to think about what they have and what we don't have
Like there's never gonna be enough, let alone satisfaction.
I think that's really depressing, exasperating --- totally aggravating.

Post-Midnight Post

Heyya Dear Reader, I feel kinda lost track of time. Here I come with some leftover energy but I'm still writing though lols

Firstly, I want to officially introduce you to my new blog "Life is like a Pen" . I think, ehm, my Life! blog is messy, with my current-super-random blog posts which I poured here. So I decided to have a special space for my ideas that is mostly only a piece of art. Yeah I call them "art", for both exaggerated and modest meanings :)
Please do come and leave some comments for me to be better in expressing my ideas. I would really appreciate your feedback.

Secondly, I do want to write more regularly as now I'm literally unemployed hahaha..
I remember I got promises to fulfill, I got things to write, but somehow I'm not always able to do create a post here. Please wish me be able to be more flexible and brave to face my own standard. Really, sometimes being a perfectionist is suck , LOL!

Matahari

#2

Ia bersedekap. Alisnya, matanya, bibirnya mengatakan, "Berlari bisa jatuh"

Lalu terluka? Biar.
Lalu sakit? Biar.

Bibirnya mengerucut masam.

Aku pergi. Aku tak sanggup diam lagi. Apalagi bersamamu.
Aku harus pergi agar kau pun bebas mencari tanda titikmu.

Dia bangkit. Berjalan menuju jendela berbingkai kayu mahoni.
Matahari terbenam keunguan menyinari sosoknya.
"Kau seperti matahari" bisiknya

oh suara itu
Jangan melankolis begini. Aku akan tetap pergi.

Suaranya sejernih pelangi,
Aku ingin berkata, you are my sunshine
Tapi kamu memang bukan my, tidak pernah menjadi mine. Belum.

Dia menatapku. Tersenyum.
Dengan itu ia mengatakan segalanya.

Berlari

Aku lelah berdiam diri. Ini bukan tanda titik tempat berhenti. Belum.

Dia tak beranjak. Namun matanya seakan berkata, "Apa maumu?"

Aku ingin pergi.

Matanya masih mengatakan hal yang sama.

Aku ingin berlari, mengejar awan.

Kali ini alisnya mengernyit.

Oh jangan meragukanku.
Aku serius.Aku akan berlari ke arah yang kutuju.
Aku tak memaksamu ikut, aku akan pergi sendiri.
Nanti di perjalanan tentu aku akan bertemu orang lain, sekadar bertegur sapa.
Mungkin bertemu teman bertualang dan berlari bersama.
Tempatku bukan di sini.



Aku akan berlari.

Membaca

Tanpa sadar, aku membacamu.

Aku membaca matamu dari tatapan sekilasmu

Aku membaca senyummu dari lengkung separomu

Aku membaca tuturmu dari kata yang sedikit terucap

Aku membaca sikapmu dari pribadimu yang santun

Aku membaca untuk menerka apa artinya.

Aku ingin tau.

Tapi hari ini, rasanya aku akan berhenti membaca.

Tatapan sekilasmu, aku tak tau kepada siapa lagi ia melembut.

Selalu menerka-nerka makna dari dirimu, sepertinya kita nggak akan kemana-mana.

Yang aku tau aku menyukai tutur sikapmu. Hanya sampai di situ.

Aku nggak berani mencari lebih dalam lagi, aku takut aku lancang.

bukan padamu. tapi pada Dia yang memiliki kita.

We are gonna continue living life, we are gonna have different path.

If it is crossed once again someday, maybe we are really meant for each other.

Now let someday be someday, it is not today nor tomorrow.

Mungkin aku akan membacamu lagi.

Tapi aku tidak lagi bertanya apa maksudnya, mencari apa maknanya

Aku akan membaca untuk berdoa,

semoga kamu mendapat yang terbaik dalam hidup dunia akhiratmu.

Please stay all right yaaa ;)

Super-Thank You Allah!

26 Mei 2012 kemarin, Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillaaaah banget!

Hasil akhir perjalanan 3 tahunku di SMA Negeri 1 Purwokerto mengejutkan banget - thank goodnees mengejutkan yang menyenangkan. Bener-bener melebihi harapanku, Subhanallaah Alhamdulillaah Ya Allah!

Seneng banget, ini buat Ibu sama Bapak! 

Rasanya pengen banget bilang makasih ke semua guru, karna nggak mungkin banget aku bisa mencapai semua ini tanpa bantuan, dukungan dan pengertian mereka. :')

Then again. Kirain oh kirain pengumuman SNMPTN Undangan masih hari Senin besok tanggal 28. Eh tapi temen-temen di sekolah heboh katanya pengumuman undangan dimajuin tanggal 26 Mei jam 17.00 WIB. Hah?  Bener aja, dibuka websitenya lagi ada countdown menuju pengumuman. It was full of anxiety!

1 jam sebelum pengumuman udah mulai mantengin website itu. Kakak aku Mba Ais nemenin sambil main Hangaroo yang jadul abis *kita main game itu dulu taun 2001-an Dear Reader, wuahahaha* Mba Ais licik banget mainnya ih! oke ini rada out of topic, tapi menurutku ini kalo diinget-inget lucu deh hahaha dasar kakak aku satu itu haha

Kurang 1 menit, oke oke oke... 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, jreng! Countdownnya hilang, muncul box yang diisi nomor pendaftaran dan tanggal lahir. Asli gugup banget itu, gerapan mencet tuts keyboard padahal ya pengumumannya ga bakal lari kaan.. 

Klik.

Muncul deretan huruf.

Hening.