Awesome, indeed

“Terpujilah wahai engkau ibu bapak guru”

“Semua baktimu akan terukir didalam hatiku. Sebagai prasasti trimakasihku tuk pengabdianmu”

Hei, ketika seseorang bangga akan profesinya sebagai guru, menurutku beliau luarbiasa.

Bangga ketika bisa berguna untuk orang lain, itu sah dan wajar. Karena memang jadi guru itu pilihan – untuk mengajar dan mendidik siswa, membagi ilmu, membaktikan diri dan kemampuan – itu semua pilihan yang membuat guru menjadi sosok yang mulia. Itu menurutku.

Terlalu positifkah pandanganku tentang guru? Ah enggak. Memang beliau yang digugu dan ditiru, yang patut diteladani. Guru itu manusia, iya. Beliau punya kekurangan, iya. Tapi selama kita bisa mencari dan melihat lalu memetik kebaikan di sosoknya, semua guru pasti bisa jadi guru baik. Karena ingat, manusia pasti punya kekurangan, dan bersamaan dengan itu manusia juga pasti punya kelebihan. So, every teacher is a good role model as long as we want to believe in their own capability.

Masuk ke kelas 11, tingkat kesulitan pelajaran meningkat, guru yang baru akan dikenal dengan beragam karakter. Pernah denger kanan-kiri depan-belakang tentang guru A, guru B, guru C, dst.

Kata kakak-kakak, guru A ngga enak ngajarnya, pelit nilai, blah-blah-blah.

Guru B katanya suaranya lirih, ngga pernah didengerin di kelas dan ngga gampang marah, jadi santai aja. Guru C katanya galak so jangan macem-macem. 

"Heeey, ternyata guru A enak kok ngajarnya, emang kadang hal-hal ngga penting dianggap penting oleh beliau, tapi ternyata melakukan apa yang beliau suruh bermanfaat juga kok, malah memperlancar proses understanding dari materi itu sendiri."

"Oooooh, ternyata guru B sebenernya BT banget kalo kita ribut tapi emang beliau sabar banget, aduh jadi ngga kepenak, padahal mudeng kok kalo mau ndengerin bener-bener, so ngga ada salahnya kan niat dan berusaha ndengerin penjelasan beliau?"

"Waah, guru C baik banget kok, asal kita sopan dan jelas dalam berkomunikasi, beliau pasti ngerti." 

Nah nah nah nah…

Jujur aja, aku banyak bertanya sama kakak kelas, nanya tentang gaya guru ini itu, dan dengan itu aku jadi punya bayangan gimana teknik beliau beliau itu. Image baik dan buruk tentang guru-guru itu sudah terbentuk di kepalaku. Guru yang katanya baik, yaa kebanyakan emang beneran baik dan top lah…  Eh eh tapi ternyata, guru yang katanya ngga enakeun ngajarnya, ternyata selama pelajaran beliau aku menggarisbawahi banyak kalimat-kalimatnya yang meaningful dan bener-bener bisa di-quote deh, dan aku jadi kagum sama beliau yang dibilang ngga bagus oleh banyak orang itu.…

When I see my desire rises...

I am currently watching a J-Dorama Dr.Koto Clinic. Not finished yet, still 3 episodes to go. So far so good, awesome really I do mean it.

The story is a about a doctor in a remote area of Japan called Shikina Island in which the doctor came all the way from Tokyo. He’s a great young doctor and surgeon, caring, also dependable to be in charge of everyone’s health in the society. He could be a great doctor in the city, but he came and stayed in a remote island. Can you see how much his commitment to be in a small island like that? He gave up the development of newest medical information and gave up the glory life of being a top doctor in a big city. Not a simple choice surely.

Skip about the drama, this is not my point today.


I always want to be a doctor. I want to be useful in my society, helping people in needs with every effort I can. I want to be a great, talented, reliable and dependable doctor who can serve my best to my patients and apply my ability to save every precious life.

I often imagine being a doctor in some of Indonesia’s remote area such as in a deep of Irian, Borneo, Celebes, Maluku, or somewhere in a corner of my homeland and definitely not in a city with good facilities whatsoever. I imagined my days taking care of the people who never taste a proper health facility and never treated properly by the government. Hey, there are so many people out there still struggling life without knowing that they have the rights of proper life also proper health! And I see my imagination nearly as exactly as how Dr.Koto Clinic described it. That’s why this series attracted my eyes.

But somehow I admit, I have some skepticism in my own idea. How hypocrite and naïve! Becoming a doctor is not something easy – quite hard in fact. After years in medical school, after all hard study years, I questioned myself. Will I be able to aside everything? Will I be able to defeat my own desire to earn money by applying my ability? Will I really be able to leave all my well-equipped life and devote myself in a remote area for my nation? I already have plans like a common teenager girl thinks. Yeah of course something like marry and have my own new family, have a good job, live well, even take further study – everything for myself, my family, and my bright future. I began doubting myself and losing my self principle.

Becoming someone really useful and dependable in a part of society, will I really be going through that idea? Will it be just another hypocrite theory of mine?

For God’s sake, I can’t just let that desire out of my mind! I DO want to spend sometime in a remote area, learning what my people really need, learning how my nation looks like from another side of view, learning what can I do more as an Indonesian for my homeland? Not forever, but for only a period of time.

I do hope some chance will really come for me so I can fulfill my desire and realize my idea, not only dream it.

Just like a bright star in the dark. I hope my existence is not only for myself but also for my nation. My star, Antares – the brightest star in my Scorpio Constellation - is  like a symbol for me to imply how people should be. One bright star in a star constellation lights the area around, so the dark found its guide. Means someone should be some use of the society for his own real existence.



I still have long ways to go, yes. Absolutely, I will pursue my dreams!